This post isn’t actually on my editorial calendar for the month (don’t hold me to it, but this may be a 3 post week)!
I’m writing because a few days ago, I accidentally broke my 290-day streak of logging meals on MyFitnessPal. Initially, I was disappointed to come so close to the year mark- I even had a post in mind for when I crossed the 360 day threshold. In the time that’s transpired since, I’ve wrestled with whether or not I was going to address it, if it was even that big of a deal, and almost without meaning to, here I am.
I want to write this post because I pride myself on being all the way real, and I feel like it does a disservice to all my friends out there making their uncertain way to better physical and mental health to pretend that I’ve got my crap all the way together. The reality is that I don’t, and I suspect that’s largely true for many of our fitstagram heroes out there.
I want this to be more of an open letter to the word “failure”. I have historically struggled to overcome internalized feelings of inadequacy and unfulfillment. So what’s different this time around? Luckily for this post, I think I’m finally able to put it into words.
We must applaud our best efforts, because ultimately they’re all we have. That’s not to say that we can’t take the opportunity to learn from them, good bad or indifferent. Being able to look at one’s thoughts, feelings, and actions through a critical lens without immediately equating that to abject failure is one of the most important cornerstones of mental health.
So yeah, I had a lazy weekend and dropped the ball. But I’ve also had an eventful last nine months, chock full of lessons on proper nutrition, fitness…. and cutting myself some slack.
I’m happier, healthier, and most importantly, I feel more committed than ever. I wanted to share this short post in the hopes that if there’s anyone out there struggling- you’re not alone. Sometimes, setting yourself arbitrary goals like logging every meal for a year isn’t as helpful as you think- just do what comes naturally!
Keep it real,